Monika S., School of Tantra of the Heart, Formation of Psychodynamics of Relations and Body Communication, 4th meeting, 2025

I think that after the fourth meeting at the Dragon formation, I’ve come to understand what we’re really doing and what tantra actually is. 😉 We look at the macrocosm through the microcosm, and the things that happen seem small and subtle, but in reality, they’re movements within me, in a small group and across the globe. Learning Chinese medicine, we observe, feel, smell, and observe the actions in the body, and that’s the same thing tantra does. It’s all the same 🙂 Movements of the universe, the world, in the family, in the individual.

I’m honoured to be a part of this and, through my participation, see something more, something macro, but also in my own microworld, where I live and surround myself with people. Through Tantra of the Heart, I saw the choices I make and how I perceive my place in the world. I saw that I can change these choices immediately if I want. I saw where my life energy goes, how I manage it, where it wastes, and where the mental beliefs I follow enter.

I saw myself sabotaging my heart, my SHEN, my Emperor – my Soul – the God, who I am, to continue to feel small, and God forbid I stray.

But I allowed myself to think: what if? What if I ventured into the unknown, into risk? These feelings are alive now in my body, which is constantly transforming. I allow myself to express myself, sometimes foolishly, but vividly, because then life pulsates within me ❤️ I saw that I wanted to be visible and that I could simply be different 🙂 I also saw how I reacted to receiving… how my noble ego, noble, honorable 🤣 victim reacted to gifts!!! Wow! Total resistance!

Yet somewhere, this courage appeared, the courage to do otherwise and allow myself to simply react, breathe, and see—wow, what will happen if I accept? I don’t know what will happen next, but I watch for the clues, the movements within me and my surroundings. I no longer need to position myself in a certain way, let alone in a corner 🤣 I am undefined and crazy and wild, unpredictable and let it happen, let this courage carry me 😍